Mindy Kaling recently tweeted that “One embarrassing Hollywood thing about me is I’m into the organic or homemade versions of popular junk food.” That’s totally what I’ve been doing lately. I can’t get enough of whatever organic/non-GMO fancy cheese puffs I can find. I mean, it’s not like I’m eating the questionable chemicals in Flamin’ Hot Cheetos, right?
Day after day of feeling queasy most of my waking hours, and having to force myself to stop eating well before I’m full, has been taking its toll. I can’t wait till I can eat normally again. So for now, what little at a time I can eat, I admit I’ve been eating cheese puffs and other very non-Paleo foods.
In the past, I’ve had issues with worrying too much about my weight, and obsessing over what I’m eating. So it does bother me that now I’m so focused on food and eating all the time. And it’s an unhealthy mindset to feel like I can sort of eat what I want because I can’t eat enough to gain weight. Since I can’t eat as much as I normally do, I’ve plateaued at 5 lbs. less than my baseline weight.
I realize it’s not exactly the best thing to be eating junk food (even if it’s the fancy kind), but I feel so gross most of the time, I just want to eat whatever makes me feel temporarily better. And at some point, when I do finally feel better, I intend to go back to healthier eating for the sake of my fetus. That is, after I get some gluttonous eating out of my system.