I’m 16 weeks now, and I thought this whole nausea business would be done by now. It started at 7 weeks, peaked at late 9 weeks, and started to improve at 12 weeks. So I figured by 15 weeks or so, it would be gone. But I was wrong. Though I can eat more than I did a month ago, I still feel sick if I eat too much. So it’s been frustrating dealing with it day after day, having to stop myself short of feeling full each meal. Or in many cases not being able to help myself, and then later feeling gross.
Some of my patients have said that in the early second trimester, they don’t feel like they’re pregnant. They don’t feel nauseous anymore, but they’re not feeling the baby moving yet. One of my patients, who’s an Internal Medicine doc herself, got all paranoid and even though she knew everything was probably fine, just wanted to take a peek at the baby on the ultrasound to make sure. With the nausea gone, all of a sudden this weird security blanket was taken away.
For me, even though I still feel the nausea, I have to say it’s a strange experience to still feel like this is all surreal. I’ve heard the baby’s heartbeat multiple times on my handheld Doppler device, and seen it on the ultrasound a few weeks ago. But probably because I’m not showing yet and can’t feel the baby moving yet, it still doesn’t quite feel real.
And to be perfectly honest, even though I’m supposed to feel all warm and fuzzy feelings towards this baby growing inside of me, I don’t. I can’t help but be annoyed at this little parasite who is still not letting me fully enjoy my meals. I’m sure these feelings will change, but I’m just keeping it real about how I feel right now.