I’ll be 24 weeks tomorrow, and I’m still feeling sick if I eat too much. As long as I continue to feel this way, I’ve given up on being Paleo. It’s amazing how strong the urge is to eat carbs. And sugar tastes SOO good. My husband and I went to visit his co-worker who recently had her first baby, and she said she’s never had a sweet tooth before her pregnancy, and doesn’t have one now that the baby was born. But during the pregnancy, she loved sweets. Thankfully she didn’t get gestational diabetes and she had a normal vaginal delivery (and she’s a super tiny gal).
That is definitely my fear, though. While I’ve learned to try not to feel too guilty about giving into my urges for carbs and sweets, I still want to be careful, particularly with the sugar.
On the other hand, I still haven’t been gaining enough weight. I started my prenatal care with a doctor whose office is near where I live, which was convenient to start, and also I didn’t want my pregnancy to be public at my office early on. With my next visit and for the rest of the pregnancy, I’ll switch to one of my colleagues in the office where I work, and I plan to deliver at the hospital I work at.
With the first doctor, since I don’t work with her and didn’t know her before my first prenatal appointment with her, I have more of a patient-doctor relationship with her. So when she pointed out that I haven’t gained much weight, it did make me try to change my eating habits. Well, at least for a couple days. I thought maybe I could try to snack more or something. But when it came down to it, I have been wanting so bad to be able to eat more, but with large meals I feel sick, and then I don’t feel like eating again for a while. I try to snack at work between meals, but on busy days when I’m seeing patient after patient, it’s tough to sneak much in, just a few bites. Even on weekends, I still find it hard to eat smaller amounts more frequently because food is just so tasty as I’m eating it, and it’s hard to stop short of feeling full. Ultimately, since I’m eating fairly normal amounts, so I figure Little Willie is doing just fine in there, and I’m not going to make myself sick just so I can meet the numbers goals.
At 23 weeks, I’ve gained 7 lbs from my baseline before pregnancy. I feel like I’m constantly fighting the battle of knowing I’m not gaining enough, and feeling guilty for wanting to eat so many carbs. So that’s why I feel like I’m damned if I do, damned if I don’t. No matter what I do, I can’t win so long as I’m limited by feeling gross if I eat too much. So for now, I’m trying to keep a balance- allowing myself not to be Paleo, but trying not to go totally crazy with the sugar and carbs.
I’m keeping my fingers crossed that my upcoming glucola test for gestational diabetes will be negative. Next week, I’ll be in Iceland (!) so based on my schedule, I’ll have to do the test after I get back.