I did my one hour glucola test yesterday, aka oral glucose tolerance test (OGTT). It involved downing 50 grams of artificial orange goodness:
It’s done for gestational diabetes screening at 24-28 weeks, and my blood was drawn exactly one hour after drinking the concoction. It felt gross ingesting that much sugar in one go, and I legitimately did not feel well the rest of the day. I felt even more sick than I usually do, and then in the evening I developed a sore throat. I haven’t been sick since I had a cold when I first found out I was pregnant.
This morning, besides still having the sore throat, I got the result and it was elevated. I FUCKING FAILED THE GLUCOLA TEST! I couldn’t help but keep thinking that. I was so upset, I started to tear up, but I had to get it together because I had patients to see. Now I have to take the follow-up 3 hour test, which involves checking a fasting blood draw, downing 100 grams of more artificially-colored liquid sugar, and then getting my blood drawn each hour for 3 hours after drinking it.
This is all very upsetting for me. I hate to be overly dramatic, because I know better than anyone that there are way worse complications of pregnancy that I thankfully don’t have. But when it comes down to it, this daily challenge with my eating during pregnancy has been really hard. Maybe I jinxed myself by starting this blog, because this formerly Paleo girl has not been able to stay Paleo in pregnancy, and now I have an elevated 1 hr glucola.
This has been my typical day. I wake up, and sometimes start feeling sick even before I’ve eaten anything. I usually try to eat something more Paleo for breakfast, like unsweetened Greek yogurt with blueberries, but sometimes I’ll just want my waffle with almond butter and honey. If I go with the latter, I feel a little twinge of guilt. I’ll usually have a snack in the late morning, and then I’m hungry by lunch. For lunch, I’ve been having a regular-sized meal like a wrap or sandwich. When I eat, it just tastes SOOO good and I want to keep eating. Often it’s hard to stop. And then later I’ll feel sick. I usually have a late afternoon snack when I’m done seeing patients, and even after having just a bar, I’ll often feel sick. Then I get home, again want to keep eating and have a hard time stopping, and then later feel sick. And mind you, I’m not gorging myself on huge meals, it’s just hard to stop myself after a smaller or regular-sized meal knowing that the more I eat, the more likely I’ll feel sick later.
I had given up on remaining Paleo long ago, because the food preferences in pregnancy were just too strong. Also, despite eating way more carbs than I did before pregnancy, I haven’t been gaining the recommended amount of weight. So I figured my body was telling me that I need some more carbs to help gain weight. I didn’t think I was going that overboard. Many of my patients are drinking juice and soda regularly, eating fast food and junk food regularly, and not surprisingly gaining too much weight. I wasn’t going THAT crazy, so I thought I was fine.
Well now with this elevated glucola result, I can’t help but feel like my body is betraying me. As long as I wasn’t going completely crazy with the carbs and sugar, I wanted to try to stop feeing so guilty, and try to enjoy what I was eating. Because most of the time, I so badly want to eat more, but I can’t because I feel sick all the damn time. But now this abnormal glucola result makes me wonder if I’ve been eating too many carbs. On the other hand, I don’t think I’ve been limiting carbs to the point that my body couldn’t handle this sudden glucose load.
Once again, I feel like I can’t win. Given this daily misery of feeling sick multiple times daily since 7 weeks (I’m 26 weeks now), it was at least nice to be able to be more relaxed and enjoy some carbs. Now I’m terrified that I might actually have gestational diabetes, and then I’ll have to really be super cautious with what I’m eating, not to mention check my blood sugars 4 times a day. I’m really hoping I’ll pass the 3 hour test.